Do not let my darkness speak to me

“Do not let my darkness speak to me!” Darkness meant the insinuations of doubt. But this doubt did not shake the self-evidence with which he felt God’s love. Perhaps it was even this doubt that required a language with no room for ambiguity. The self-evidence I am speaking about was not found on an intellectual level, but more deeply, on the level of the heart. And like everything that cannot be protected by powerful reasoning or well-constructed certainties, that obviousness was necessarily fragile.